I have been contemplating this question a lot over the past week. For me, one of the biggest struggles with moving overseas and serving in Latvia is leaving my family and friends. I know I will be able to see them via Skype, and when we return to reconnect, but just the thought of knowing I will be halfway around the world without them close scares me sometimes. This is a big issue that I have had to work through over the years, but as things are becoming more of a reality that fear has been slipping back in. I hear the doubts of the tempter as he tries to discourage me away from the calling God has placed on our lives. And as the doubts come, I hear the still small voice asking, “Do you love Me more than these?” I reply, “Yes, Lord. I love You more.” “Then, follow me,” He gently responds. This is a continual process, as I work through my doubts and fears.
During this process, I was reminded of a couple interactions Jesus had with people desiring to follow Him. In Matthew 8:18-22, Matthew writes:
Now when Jesus saw a crowd around him, he gave orders to go over to the other side. And a scribe came up and said to him, “Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go.” And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.” Another of the disciples said to him, “Lord, let me first go and bury my father.” And Jesus said to him, “Follow me, and leave the dead to bury their own dead.” (ESV)
These two men desired to follow Christ. One was asked to give up comforts; while, the other closeness of family. Ultimately, Jesus was calling them to decide. Would they follow Him no matter the cost? Would their allegiance to Him be above everything else?
Do you love Me more than these? Are you willing to follow Me where I lead? Do you trust Me? God is calling me to Latvia, and I will follow.
~Thoughts from Tim